Thank you so much for visiting My Bitter Insanity — this website is very close to my heart. After planning and designing it for over a month beforehand, I published MBI's first post on September 20, 2017. It talked a lot about how much I had been struggling with perfectionism and the true leap forward it was to write and publish that first post.
The last post I published was on April 18, 2019 — that post also marked a milestone. I had been struggling to write consistently and kept drowning myself in shame over it. But through my final post, I processed how hard that year had been for me and how significant it was that I was looking for a solution. I also realized that I needed to allow myself to stop posting regularly on MBI.
Since that last post, I still really enjoy writing, and I do it when I can. I've also come back and often re-read what I wrote here. It's an interesting experience to read such vulnerable writing from such a difficult time of my life, and I look at a lot of the things that I wrote differently now. Notably, I take a far less medicalized perspective of mental health these days (and I'd like to think my writing has improved a bit, too).
In the more than two years since I wrote that last post, I've often been conflicted about what to do with this website. It feels wrong and uncomfortable to delete it, but it's also now feeling weird to keep it — it's not an accurate representation of my current values, perspectives, and self.
So, I've found a mid-point. I'm launching a new little side project, and while it's not done, it's definitely underway. When it's ready, you'll be able to find some of my favourite posts, some new writings, and hopefully some video essays over at Maddi the Moodi.
This new project will absolutely still talk about mental health, but it'll take a slightly different approach and it will cover a greater variety of topics. There, I'll also opine on social justice and social change, and, more broadly, I'll work through some of the questions that tend to bounce around my brain. I hope that you'll join me!
In the meantime, if you're deadset on getting in touch or are looking for a specific post, feel free to email firstname.lastname@example.org.