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Alright, so, here we go. As it will shock no one, I was wrong about a lot of things when I was 18, and suicidality was one of those many. This post is one of the first ones I wanted to write when I started my blog but, as you can see, I’ve put it off for a while. It’s pretty embarrassing.
I don’t know how many doctors I told, ‘Oh, I’m not at risk of suicidal thoughts, I talked a lot about mental health growing up, so I know enough that I know it doesn’t solve anything.’
I mean, it’s so dumb I’m almost laughing. Almost. Because, well, here I am, 22 years old, and freshly released from the hospital after intentionally driving my car into a post during one of my many suicidal episodes.Continue Reading