Right now, I’m hiding in my room. I’m in the dark, under the covers, and the only is noise is my keyboard and John Oliver on my iPad. I’m having an extremely bad day at the end of an absolutely terrible couple of weeks. I don’t think I’ve showered in well over a week and I had to call in sick to work yesterday. I have not been in this position in a very long time. I am not happy to be back here, but this time also feels different. Though I’m depressed, apathetic, and completely demotivated, hope still seems to be weaselling itself in.
The last time I was in this spot, I quickly became suicidal, dropped everything I was doing, and completely abandoned it. Actually, that’s what I’ve pretty much always done. This time is different, though.
My winter was an extremely stressful one. I was essentially working about 6 part-time jobs, which added up to over 40 hours per week.Continue Reading